Haul ( Part 2 ) ...

Hey Guys ! Hope you're all ok :o) this is the second part of my haul that I started in my last post it's more of a collective haul hence doing it in 2 parts :-D hope you enjoy !!
Thick Knit Vests - H&M
Metallica Vest - Urban Outfitters
Beanies - Urban Outfitters
CD's - Amazon
Kermit Klein Top - New Look
Dog/Cat Face Tops - Pull & Bear
Casio Watch - Urban Outfitters
Fair Isle Pj Bottoms - Ebay

Haul ..

Hey Everyone ! Hope you're all ok :o)
Sorry for the lack of posting lately just been soo busy getting bits and pieces ready for my little online boutique I'm hoping to open in the near future ( keep an eye out for updates.) I also said a couple of posts ago that I was going to start filming videos for YouTube to run alongside this blog however my camera decided to break on me so I've had to fork out rather alot of money on a new one lol which thankfully arrived today so YouTube here I come !!!! Anyways back to today's post I thought I'd do a lil haul and show you some things I've picked up lately hope you enjoy !
Totes Amazeballs Tee - Topman
Converse - Littlewoods
Vans - both Office
leopard fur scarf - Blog Sale
Skull Crop Tee - Topshop
Popchop CD's - Amazon
Books - Amazon :o)

C x

Anxiety/Panic Attacks ...

Hey Guys :o) Hope your all well ! So I wanted to a bit of a different post today in response to a post I read on Zoe's Blog (Zoella) http://schoee.blogspot.com/2011/12/panic-attacks.html about Panic attacks and her experiences with them now I know that if you haven't suffered from any form of anxiety or panic (your uber lucky!) you may find this post a bit boring (don't feel you have to read it) but I'm going to do it anyways as I feel the more of us there is talking about this subject the more people it will benefit so here's my experience ... When I was 10 years old my dad had a severe allergic reaction to penicillin he was given for a toothache ! Obviously he became seriously the worst part was seeing him be violently sick and then put into an ambulance implanting on my brain that being sick ment having to go to hospital and could be fatal (of course in most cases not true at all) but its left me with a phobia of sick ( if you read Zoe's post you'll see she mentions about sick a lot to its more common than is often realised ) mine really hit me in about year 9/10 or secondary school in the end it forced me to stop going and I missed a good two years of schooling ! I then began to not eat thinking that if I didn't eat I wouldn't be sick (which sounds silly now) but at the time seems so logical I became borderline anorexic and was told that if I didn't eat I would be admitted to hospital (I hate hospitals!) so with every power in me I slowly but surely begun to eat again I can't tell how hard it was to do and at first my body rejected it but in the end my body took to it and I started to have more energy Etc. however to this day I don't enjoy food the way I should .... Through this time and even now I have seen numerous counsellors right now I'm having CBT(Cognitive behavioural therapy) which I think is being the most effective for me (although everybody is different and it is a very long process) I still find it very difficult to leave the house and sometimes don't leave it for weeks on end (this is a working progress) and because of this I have lost a lot of friends but have come to accept that those who don't want to know really aren't worth worrying even though it still hurts I'm lucky enough to have friends that have stuck with me since day 1 even though I've let them down so many times (when they've invited me out I've said yes because I've wanted to go so much but when it's come to the day I've let them down because the anxiety has become to overwhelming therefore many of them have just stopped asking which I guess is understandable). I'm also lucky to have the most supportive family who throughout all my struggles have never given up on me which I cant thank them enough for ! I'm not telling you these things to depress you I'm or feel sorry for me I'm telling you these things so if you're going through the same kind of stuff you won't feel so alone because I know it can be the most lonely place in the world to be but there are far more people going through the same thing than we realise and also to say that although panic attacks are the most horrible thing in the world they are not fatal and you can come through them by preserving even though it's so extremely tough at times and sometimes it won't be possible and you'll still run away but remember this doesn't mean you're weak it just means you've been trying to be strong for too long as long as you don't give up trying that's all the matters ! Ps. Don't forget the first step to any recovery is to talk to someone and while I know we're not all blessed with the most understanding and kind people in the world there is always someone(a doctor, a teacher Etc.) You don't have to go it alone !!! C x